Often times, we live through life’s difficult times getting bruised and battered. As a follower of Christ, we are grateful to have Him as our source of strength and comfort.
But through the valleys, there are always unknowns. I don’t know about you but for me, the unknowns cause me to ask questions. The BIG unknown, can lead to the BIG unknown question, “What if the worst happens?”
A few nights ago, Brianna asked Mihi a question along those lines. “Mommy, what if Abby dies? Will we go back to Romania?” The truth is, we have been fielding some really hard questions in our home lately. Simple questions about how you use the facilities during surgery, to deep theological questions about our good God who loves us and has the power to heal instantly… a lot of questions, so Brianna’s question fit into the mix.
Mihi and I haven’t spent much time discussing this question, or really any question in regards to “if the worst happens”. Not that we don’t realize that it is a possibility because it is a possibility and we know it is. We pray to the Father that we don’t want to bury our youngest, we want all three of our kids to outlive us both.
“God has called our family to serve Him in Romania, so if Abby dies, we will go back to Romania. We don’t want to do anything without her. If she dies, it will be really hard, but we will still follow what God says and go back to Romania.” Brianna took Mihi’s answer and the conversation moved on.
I could not have said it any better than Mihi did. After the death of a loved one, there is great pain. There is great suffering. But just as Mihi stated to Brianna: even if the worst happens, we will serve the Lord.
I was meditating on Habakkuk 3:17–19a and actually had a chance to share a little with a church this past Sunday before they prayed for the family and Abby. Habakkuk’s prayer states,
“When the fig tree does not bud,
and there are no grapes on the vines;
when the olive trees do not produce,
and the fields yield no crops;
when the sheep disappear from the pen,
and there are no cattle in the stalls,
I will rejoice because of the Lord;
I will be happy because of the God who delivers me!
The sovereign Lord is my source of strength.“
Habakkuk realized that inner peace is never contingent on outward circumstances. Even if there is absolute ruin around us, we are to trust in our sovereign God who is our source of strength! God alone can give us victory over the battering waves of the problems we face in this life.
Together as a couple, Mihi and I are looking to our sovereign God to be our source of strength in this valley in which we currently find ourselves. We are praying that He will allow the doctors to proceed with wisdom beyond their training & that the surgery will happen without any issues. That Abby will come through with flying colors. That she will recover quickly, and that all the possible negative outcomes and side effects will just be a list that we never had to face.
But regardless of the circumstances now and in the future, we will trust our sovereign God to be our source of strength. He is more than enough to sustain us when we rejoice, and he is more than enough to sustain us when we mourn.